Monday, December 31, 2012
Sunday, December 30, 2012
I decided to title this blog after a lyric I heard last night from a not so funny song. But before I get to that I'd like to first say that cleaning your car during the winter, in below 30 degree weather is NOT a smart idea. Snow blowing everywhere, hands and feet going numb, wind burn on my cheeks-I gave up and drove to the nearest coffee spot. (It's been over an hour and I'm still trying to warm up.)
Back to last night: my husband and I had a great day together. Did a few gift returns, spent my Christmas money on a pretty dress, purse and earrings. Like Gary said, it was my second Christmas! I didn't mind ^.^ for dinner we went to our favorite local cafe. It's a small one but has a great vintage feel to it. 50's style coffee tables, dim lighting, a little performance space for singers, poetry readers, etc...SO! We weren't expecting any singers on Saturday night (usually Sunday night is open mic) but by the time we were done eating we decided to stay for a few songs.
She was a younger woman from NYC. We were a little baffled because it was an absolute blizzard yesterday and only 8 people at the most were at the cafe. I felt a little bad for her.
She started her first song, an audience involved one. Yanno, where they teach you the chorus and you have to sing along on your turn. The song was about a person passing through different events. I believe she said it was written by an English professor back in the 50's. In the song she mentioned passing through calvary hill and seeing Jesus's crucifixion. It wasn't bad.
The next song...
She introduced it by telling us it was about an old friend of hers who was a comedian and also an alcoholic. A friend who was seeking help, went to AA and further started seeking help in Jesus.
She said "I am not a Christian." And this song is about who he became while searching for Jesus. A few lyrics went like this: "you were better when you drank.." "you're just chasing Jesus in the dark.." and "you're not funny anymore."
During the song I had a mix of emotions- slightly offended, sad for her friend, sad for her... After the song Gary and I left.
I wasn't sure what I was feeling. Angry that people can openly speak negatively about Jesus without a problem. Angry that if this situation were switched around (with Jesus being a good choice) it wouldn't be accepted. Sad for the alcoholic in the song who has a friend that thinks he was "cooler" when he was drowning himself to death...
I particularly have a heavy heart for alcoholics having been around a few when I was growing up. So this subject isn't easy for me to talk about.
I left uneasy. But still glad that I left. I guess I'm upset because she was singing a lie about my Jesus. Because with Jesus in my life I'm still the same crazy girl. Still laughing, singing but enjoying life more than I ever have. Loving and appreciating all around me. Amazed that I am loved by Someone who has died for me, forgives me and loves me with a love that no one on this green earth can ever comprehend. It's natural for me to want to share this with others...but so hard when they reject it and silence you.
Wow. I didn't mean to make it this long. Just needed to spill. Thanks for reading. And weird note to end on but I truly hope you had an awesome Christmas. I'll have to write about my Christmas play I got to write and perform at church and the beautiful woman behind the true story. For now, I'm going to go home, grab my corn pillow and watch some chick flicks with Pumpkin ^.^
Have a merry Sunday kiddos!
Friday, November 16, 2012
But she's so pretty-it's hard not too.
It's funny now that we have Pumpkin we can't go out in public without having at least a handful of people commenting on how beautiful she is. Which caught me off guard the first time I took her out on my own to the pet store in my sweats, messy hair and no makeup (Yea, when I'm dressed like that I'm usually trying to get out of there quick and unnoticed!). She's a little over 2 months now and growing more and more each week it seems. We are so in love with her and wish we could keep her this small forever! I mean look at all the growing she's doing:
Anyway, she's definitely made our lives more joyful (now that she's past the crate training tantrums and waking us up 3 times a night)! Oh and to whoever is reading, if you have an animal with fleas the easiest way to rid them of it is: Dawn dish soap. It surprised us but it worked amazingly! Just scrub it in, let it sit for 5 minutes and watch the fleas die instantly-She was born on a farm in a fairly big litter and where she stayed was in a crate with all of her brothers and sisters in a pile of hay. Although it was a scary thing for us the first night getting her. We gave her one bath the first night and then two days later gave her another dawn bath. It can dry out puppy's skin though so only do it 2-3 times at most if needed. After all that we got her K9 Advantix and haven't seen one since!
She is a handful but our favorite part of the day is coming home to her and how excited she gets when we do. I think once Gary and I do starting trying for a baby (which won't be for awhile!) we'll always consider her our first ^.~
Oh and our new house update: it's coming along. slowly. DIY projects have become our favorite thing recently. But I do wish remodeling was a quicker process! Before and After pictures to be posted...
Have a great Thanksgiving everyone!!! And make sure to enjoy all the time you have with friends and family ^.^
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Pumpkin woke us up around 2 am and I offered to get up and take her out. As I tried the hall light that's when I realized the power was out. I heard sirens and the wind howling and all I could think of was "How bad is it out there?" and "Why didn't we prepare for this better!? We don't have enough water or food!" Gary was moving some of our food in the fridge to the freezer and warned me not to flush the toilets so not to waste our water supply (um, ok-who knew!). As I waited by Pumpkin's crate to help her get back to sleep about 20 mins later the power came back! We were so relieved--waking up the next morning I found out that the majority of my town hadn't had any power outages. Thankfully, we only had to experience it for a short time. I thought to myself how incredibly blessed we were and what the rest of the east coast was going through.
I turned on the news first thing Tuesday morning and saw all the damage from Sandy. My heart goes out to all the families and all my friends who are still without power. I am praying for you all to have a quick recovery and for your safety!!! If you feel God pressing on your heart to help out with any relief efforts visit the KLOVE news page for more info (www.klove.com). God bless you friends and remember God has not left your side, not once during this devastation.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Our new home though has unfortunately been let go and well...is in SERIOUS need of t.l.c. My husband and I thank God every day for this amazing gift but that doesn't change the fact that all the windows have cracks, the furnace saw it's last winter a year ago, the bathroom is like a scene from 'Texas Chainsaw Masacre', the closets can maybe fit our winter coats and boots comfortably, the yard is a jungle and our unwelcomed house mates are little not so cute spiders. I could go on but it would just make me more depressed. Oh the "joys" of owning a home.
Can you understand why I'm a little torn?
It's been a week and we pray that in a year we'll have made a decent dent in the renovation process.
Also, we got a puppy! (this will make the adventure all the more exciting!!!...right???)
But honestly, we are ridiculously excited about getting our little Pumpkin girl. We'll be getting her on Halloween so it just made sense to us to name her that. Ha!
Here she is...!
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
A joyful feeling... A gorgeous sight...
Friday, August 3, 2012
Raising an Olympian: Gabby Douglas
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
We like to visit NYC at least around half a dozen times a year, it's also great because I have a group of friends that are always more than willing to let us crash at their place. I can't explain how much I love crossing the bridge into the city--almost instantly we feel that particular thick, warm air. A few minutes later I can smell the ocean...*sigh* Yes. I love this place.
Surfing was by far the best time I have ever had! We loved it so much!!! The waves were somewhat intimidating that morning we went out, the sky was cloudy and the winds were picking up. You could tell from the instructors that this was not a normal day with quiet waves. They crashed one after the other. As soon as we picked up our boards it became real to me and I almost chickened out. Gary remembers me saying "Ok this is way to scary. Let's go!" and I remember praying for God to keep us safe!
There were a mix of jumper waves/face smacking waves/take me under and drag me 10 ft back waves--all totally enjoyable! We'd jump on our boards as the instructor positioned us, he'd yell "paddle, paddle" and soon after "UP! UP!" let me tell you--the BEST feeling in the world was riding that wave-it wasn't huge but it still gave me such a rush! Wish I had a video but I do have a few pictures....
Gary and I were cheering eachother on and every time Gary saw the instructor free he'd yell "Go on babe! I wanna see you ride another one!" He was too sweet and knew how badly I wanted to try this. New hobby? I think so!
Friday, July 20, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
This past week we reminisced as we celebrated our 7th month of marriage and our 7th year dating anniversary and we've confidently concluded that we have been through probably more than most couples experience in a decade (or two!). Heck-we've experienced more than most within the first 24 hours of us dating!
And the best part about it is I wouldn't take this ride with anyone else but my Gary...
Our dating anniversary has always been a bittersweet time. Sweet was the 12th of July as we chose to be with one another and bitter was the 13th as my husband's father suddenly left this world. The man who I never had the chance to meet. As I look back now at the few days before he passed, as I spoke briefly with him on the phone...I wonder if he knew who I was? It's funny to think about and I realize not possible but great to imagine....if only he knew. If I knew, I would have loved to have said "Hey, I'm not only Gary's first girlfriend but also his future wife, your future daughter-in-law! I'll be having your grand kids too! What do you think of that???..." I know it's completely dumb but it's passed through my mind many times and I pray somehow you know this now Papa Hood...
We look back on all we've conquered and persevered through and we realize we couldn't have done any of it without God.
Speaking of HIM-He's been opening up doors for us and answered many prayers. After what seemed like a long, tiring search, God directed us straight to our church home. *Finally!* A place where we can set our roots and grow together! There's nothing wierd about their doctrine (which was the common stumbling block for us) 100% Bible believing, Gospel CENTERED church.
Oh and random crazy discovery: The Pastor's son...who has also recently married (and close to our age)....has cholesteatoma just like Gary! Craziness! I mean, you need to first understand people, this tumor-like growth in the ear is EXTREMELY RARE! This past Sunday we found this out. I mean...Wow. But what can we say...our God is funny like that!
The warmth of the entire church family as well as the Pastor's family from day 1, the people's love for Jesus, their immense desire to serve the Lord and be the body of Christ, all of the things we've been praying for being answered...yea. We finally know that this is where we belong.
We also have some exciting news but it's a bit to early to share with everyone, maybe in a few months or so I'll let the cat outta the bag *and NO...it's not what you think...we are NOT pregnant* (Give that another year or so...??? ^.~)
God has been so good to us and even though it hasn't been a dull ride thus far! We are looking forward to our future and how God plans to use us in this beautiful, crazy plan of His!
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose."Romans 8:28
Not quite sure how this video fits but I love Labyrinth. One of my favorite comfort movies! I especially love this ball room scene. Hope you enjoy it-if not, I apologize in advance ^.~
Thursday, May 17, 2012
The first time Gary and I went to our bible study it was based on the scripture Matthew 14:22-33, where Jesus came to his disciples in the boat and Peter stepped out to meet him on the water. The whole study was on faith. Having faith in Jesus.
“Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” 28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”29 “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.” Matthew 14:22-33
When my husband received the news that his Cholesteatoma came back, this time worse than before and close to his brain, my heart sank deep into my stomach. He was being treated for a bad ear infection for a week or so and finally when he told his ear doctor something still was not right, he did a cat scan and saw the tumor. Now c-toma isn’t quite a tumor. But it is tumor-like, in the way it acts. Fortunately, it is not cancerous and does not spread through out the body. More often doctors refer to it as “middle ear disease”. It’s very rare and can form from chronic ear infections. The c-toma had lurked back into his ear, silently, unseen by the doctor.
The first time this happened to him, the doctor also thought: “Just a bad ear infection”.
3 weeks ago today he was sent in for an emergency surgery. He went in around 1 pm and I didn’t see him until 8 that night! I was so grateful for everyone who prayed during that time…Between the two surgeries he required a mastoidectomy, a widened ear canal and a lot of reconstruction. It is beyond me everything that the c-toma destroyed in my husband’s ear. I vaguely remember this new doctor telling me the three tiny bones were not all there, a few tubes that function for balance were half gone and the thin bone structure between the top of his ear and his brain was eroded. (The anatomy of an ear is extremely confusing to me.) He lost a lot of hearing out of the right ear, we’re not sure yet how many decibels but as of now, all sound is muffled to him.
So the night before his surgery, as we went into this frightened and overwhelmed, I prayed over Gary and we were brought to a scripture that was truly sent from God…
“I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears. Surely, I will heal you…” 2 Kings 20:5
Over the 4 days we felt like Peter did. “Ok Jesus- I know You’re there and I know You won’t but just… please don’t let go of our hands!” And He didn’t. Not once. During the hours that my husband was in surgery and all the minor complications (that seemed giant) that he was facing, God’s faithfulness was there.
His new doctor is taking good care of him, seeing him every 3 weeks and keeping him under close watch. He specifically specializes in c-toma so we’re confident with him. We pray every day for full restoration for Gary’s hearing but there is an awesome option that the doctor recommended for him. It’s a cochlear implant (like a hearing aid but it’s permanently inside you! This device can even make a person born deaf, hear!)
What really amazes me though is my husband’s courage with everything that’s happened to him. Everyone that he’s seen (lots of doctors/nurses) admires and comments on his attitude through all of this. I mean, I look at this and say I don’t know if I’ll ever know what it feels like to physically lose…anything of myself! My hearing, my sight, my arms, legs, whatever! But I pray that if it does, I have the same outlook that my husband does.
Thank You God for protecting Gary. Thank You for allowing him to catch this on time. Thank You for Your promises. Thank You for Your love and Thank You for saving my husband’s life.
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
So the first week was the hardest. And that was it.
I then asked myself what was the big deal!? So then I thought it was more like reading those tabloid gossip magazines (that I want to burn everytime I pass by one) I'm not going to say that everyone on my friend's list posts crappy things but....the majority of the statuses are negative, unnecessary and offensive. The conversations have a tendency to go nowhere.
Also, I noticed that the only times I was especially anxious to go on was when I wanted to share something that encouraged me. Whenever I read a powerful scripture or heard an awesome song. I missed catching up with friends who I never see and the groups I'm a part of that would give daily words of encouragement. But other than that...I didn't miss anything else about it! I remember signing back on Easter Sunday and saying "Ok, the purpose of MY fb needs to change".
On a brighter note, I was able to focus more on the Word and my prayer life! Replacing the bad habits with spiritual discipline to grow closer to my Lord- that's something to celebrate kids! ^.^
It's amazing how much closer God can bring you to Him through sacrifice.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
She also states that "Just because Christians think homosexuality is a sin does not mean we hate those that are homosexual."
I'm a theatre geek and many of my good friends are gay-whom I love! They respect my views and I do not force to change theirs. I do not believe anyone should force others to believe what they do. You will not have much success.
But when questioned about my beliefs, I will always stand up for my God because I am called too...
Check it out:
Quit Bashing Kirk Cameron
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
Firstly, we are one month and 11 days married today-(together for over 6 1/2 years). December 10th, 2011 was the happiest day of our lives (so far). Gary told me yesterday how much he misses that day as he was standing next to my wedding dress. (I really have to let go and get that preserved already) It was such a beautiful, God-filled day. That day we felt God the most, like He was standing right next to us. And all of our family and friends enjoyed it just as much, we had so much love and support on that awesome day....we're now even more excited about the adventure that lies ahead of us in married life!
Gary's already planning our vow renewals....25 years down the road of course ^.^
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Now my husband and I watched this video when it only had about...300 views. It's currently over 15 million views (just on youtube)!
Ok so my opinion, ya know, for what it's worth.
From a performers view this video was extremely well done (filming, editing, etc) and it had a respectable, genuine expression of his heart for Jesus and religion... (specifically religion today).
As a Christian:
Honestly, when I first watched it I had tears in my eyes and I was shouting 'Amen' and 'Hallelujah' every other sentence (and I'm pretty sure I heard grumbles coming from my downstairs neighbor). Ok, my first reaction.
Second reaction came the next day after seeing the hundreds of comments other Christians left. There were some positive but many I saw were mostly negative. And that's not to say that I didn't agree with some things I read but I was very surprised at the Christians who actually insulted this man and his video. I can agree though that the message he was trying to convey could have been clearer. I absolutely agree that we are called to fellowship and to be the body of Christ (to nonbelievers AND our Christian brothers and sisters). I can see how that issue could upset believers because a non believer watching this can think "ok-soooo I don't need to go to church or follow God's commands???" But that's just one of the things that someone can mistakenly take away from this. I can understand where he was coming from though and Christians need to know that his intentions were not bad. And he is not perfect. No one is. Not on this earth at least.
I think I'm really passionate about his poem because I understand and have experienced what he's talking about. I have had harsh judgement not from members in a church, but from pastors and priests. I'd rather not go to in depth but basically I've been told that because of my former background as a Catholic I could not be trusted and leader of the church needed to protect his sheep.... (even after I explained that I am a saved Christian through Jesus Christ *for 8 years now* in search for the "right" church). So I guess that's why I had my first reaction to his video. I think that there are definitely churches out there that need to be more of an image of Christ to everyone, especially to people seeking shelter in their church. This whole seperation that Christians have going on now is definitely not what God called us to do. None of this "My denomination is the true religion or my church is better than yours!"-Christians have to realize that this chases others away. And the point he made about reaching out more to serve and love others is our purpose in this life, right?
Here's an exerpt I read from Max Lucado's 'A Gentle Thunder':
Never in the Bible are we told to create unity. We are simply told to maintain the unity that exists. Paul exhorts us to preserve "the unity which the Spirit gives" (Ephesians. 4:3, NEB). Our task is not to invent unity, but to acknowledge it....When I see someone calling God Father and Jesus Savior, I meet a brother or a sister -- regardless of the name of their church or denomination.
By the way, the church names we banter about? They do not exist in heaven. The Book of Life does not list your denomination next to your name. Why? Because it is not the denomination that saves you. And I wonder, if there are no denominations in heaven, why do we have denominations on earth?
What would happen (I know this is a crazy thought), but what would happen if all churches agreed, on a given day, to change their names to simply "church"? What if any reference to any denomination were removed and we were all just Christians? And then when people chose which church to attend, they wouldn't do so by the sign outside ... they'd do so by the hearts of the people inside. And then when people were asked what church they attended their answer wouldn't be a label but just a location. And then we Christians wouldn't be known for what divides us; instead we'd be known for what unites us -- our common Father.
Crazy idea? Perhaps.
The judgement I've received are still painful and make it all the more harder in our search but God is good. Always. And He'll bring us through this.
Anyway, there was my opinion on the whole matter. I still love the video even with it's flaws. It's his heart and his feelings about the church today. Who am I to have pass any kind of judgement on that?
Thanks for reading and if you can, keep my husband and I in your prayers in our search for the "right" church. ^.^